Tuesday, July 21, 2009

A morbid question, it is not.

If you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what would you do?

I know that many people ponder what they would do in this situation. This made me think as well. So here are some of the things that I would want to do if I knew I was going to die tomorrow.

Lets say I have the whole day, so I will spend my first waking hours praying. Although I admit I have been less than perfect in my Christian life, my belief in God remains strong. My main concern would be to pray for my family and their ability to get past this day with ease. The second concern would be to make sure that I am right with God. Finally, I would ask that my passing be a peaceful transition from this life to the next.

After calling friends and telling them how I appreciated their contributions in my life, I would like to take a walk with my children. Though they are adults now, these three people have played a big role in my life and well-being. The closeness that we have as a family has been an amazing strength through my life. Walking with them as we talked about some of our memories among other things would be a top priority. My greatest hope is that I could pass some peace onto them about my death. For them to know how very deep my love for them goes is one of the most important things to convey. One last time, I would look them each in the eyes and tell them "It will be okay."

Also I would like to have dinner with everyone. The entire family would have to be there. My parents and sister and everyone else that is in my extended family. We would laugh and travel down many roads of memory. My sister would know how much I appreciated the times she cared for me. My father would know that his strength gave me strength. My mother would know that whatever things happened in the past are truly in the past and that I no longer hold those ill feelings.

And finally, I would like to sit with my love( you know who you are). As the evening moves further along and everyone has gone home, I would sit cuddled closely with him. I would let him know exactly how much he means to me. Making him aware of how very much I appreciate his support when I wanted to realize a dream. He would know that my love for him runs far deeper than he could imagine. If the option exists, I would lay in his arms until the moment that I slipped from his arms - to God's.

How about you? What would you do if you were to die tomorrow?


Tracey said...

OMG! how sad was that, it almost made me cry!!!
I would just like to be with my family and Paul....that's it.
Ray, can you please get your finger out and make that special someone happy, I cannot stand the suspense any longer, (or the miserable posts!!!)
Lots of love
Trace xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jenni @ nest to keep said...

I had to keep reminding myself that you weren't really dying, because it made me so sad! I am so glad you aren't! But I know what you mean about wondering what you would do if you knew it was your very last day on earth. I would want to have a day like what you described, because it focuses what has eternal value. (God and the people in our lives.)

Mimi said...

Hi Odette,
I loved reading this post. It really lets us see the real you. If I were to have one day left to live, I would spend it at home with my family. They are the most important people in the world to me, and just having them wih me would make it one last beautiful day.

Sid Brechin said...

A great deal of my life I have had to live it as if I could die at any moment. As a result I don't think I would change anything at the last minute. I am not a believer in Death Bed Repentance. Maybe I would try to get a good night's sleep so I would be rested for the journey.


Beautiful hun. Great post!!!
I have come close to death a number of times, and each time was a different experience.
Maybe because of this I kind of grit my teeth and try not to be scared.
I have been down the praying track, hugged my kids alot, prepared them for independence and given them life skills advice. I cleared up my house and removed anything I didn't want people going through. I don't want people having to clean up my mess if I die. I gave orders to a friend and wrote a note for my Hospital notes and had it witnessed for what I wanted done in case of death.
When I believed I was dying last year I was terrified and determined to live. I prayed everyday I would be able to get home to my kids.
I pictured my daughter devastated as we are so incredibly close. She told me once that if I died, she didn't want to live. I had to tell her "no you will live on and give me Grandchildren".
When I went back to theatre I was resigned that I may not return. I prayed and spoke to my dead friend telling her I was going to give her an ass whooping if I saw her.
Then I closed my eyes as the anaesthetic kicked in and resigned myself to whatever.
Sometimes the most you can do is prepare your loved ones, as they are the ones who are left with the pain.
love ya

Thomas Wold said...

Your post certainly is "a view from above"!

I think I would fix a picnic lunch-- drive up to Mount Palomar which is near here with my sweetie--and enjoy a last quiet walk with her breathing the cool pine-scented mountain air together.

Everything else would take care of itself, I'm sure.

Odette said...

hahaha, was it miserable for you? we will all die sooner or later, but the sad part is, we don't when this will happen. i may not be able to do those things i mentioned here, but i just wish it will go that way...

Odette said...

yeah we women tend to be more sentimental, and would spend the day with family and those people who mean to us. but others have their own way of going out and that's what interest me, hence i posted this.

Odette said...

if you are going to die, i would want to be able to spend the last day with you, to be able to tell you that your life had not been in vain.

Odette said...

i understand how many times you have been in death's door and it must be very scary. but it's not your time yet, and yes, you will still be able to see your grand children!!
love you,

Odette said...

hello Thomas!
yes, like you i would spend the day with people who meant so much to me.
just make sure you come back home before you pass out or she will have to drag you body down from the mountain. Lol!

Tracey said...

I know we are all going to pop our clogs at some point, so my motto is 'live for today' After almost losing Amy I no longer worry over stuff as I used to. I also bore my kids by telling them that life is not a rehearsal so just do it.

Angry American said...

Damn Kirst.

It's freaky when you call an O.R. a "theatre". It conjures up macabre images of sick twisted mad scientists gathering around to create things "a la Frankenstein" for the entertainment of an audience of wack jobs (like the people who watch American Idol). :D

Anyways Odette, I wasn't very pleased with this post so, I'm not ganna say ANYTHING about this subject. I don't want to jinx anything and it's too horrible of an idea for me to think about. I almost died four times in one year already so, I just wanna think happy thoughts about what's left of our time together.

Boysie Gonzaga said...

Today is going to be my last day and tomorrow I will be immortal! Not bad at all!

Very nice write-up Dette!!!

Odette said...

welcome home!!!

Lirish said...

hhhhmmm..deep thoughts..all put in a few words but mean so much..would love to spend some time with on such a day..i dont know i am not good at talks, but would just sit there holding your hand..not able to show how much it would hurt me or how much i would miss..for it would make you feel more sad..

my death, i would prefer i would not know that it is coming, if i know that time, may be i would spend time speaking to all those people whom i havent spoken for long, spend time with my close friends who have meant so much in my life..and lastly sit back with the love of my life..just lying there speaking nothing..just holding hands..

Odette said...

if only we can ask when to die, no? but saying goodbyes would be too much of a task. so i think Sid is right when he say that he live each day as if it is his last...


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