Thursday, January 14, 2010

Waiting for disaster.

After hearing and watching the disaster in Haiti, I have resolved to wait my own disaster. It is not as if I am not doing this everyday, because in life we all wait for disaster to strike.

Yes, this may seem paranoid, but let me explain. You see, everyday people are faced with disaster. People are diagnosed with cancer and given only months to live. Sons go to war and never come back, or daughter meet an accident. There are people abandoned by the ones they love, and then there is nature's unstoppable wrath.

It is rare to meet a person who has not faced at least a small disaster. So, I will wait... I will wait for my disaster to come. For my father to fall ill. For someone to leave me and not come back. For a denial of my application. For the dormant fault line to start to quiver and shake. For a dream unfulfilled.

I will wait because if I don't, this disaster might caught me by surprise and if I am not prepared, I may fail to be strong and I may fall apart. Falling a part is not an option I can accept. So even when it may seem cynical and morbid to wait for disaster to strike. For me, it actually seem to be a rational thing to do as I am more likely to survive if I plan ahead of time and be prepared when the unthinkable happens.

Will you, too?


Tracey said...

After the 'near misses' in my life, What ever happens....happens.

Angry American said...

For me it's not worth worring about things not worth worring about. You can't stop mother nature no matter how much technology you have, and there are a lot more man made disasters just around the corner.

♥ Amy ♥ said...

I have handled a lot of disaters so far in my life...I must admit I do worry what is next around the corner but you can't stop anything that is coming to you xxx


Im kinda over disasters and have been doing everything to avoid them!!! I have spent my entire life surviving which is a drain.

Only a small amount of things truely get to me, family and close friends. Everything else going on doesnt have much to do with me so I ignore it, for survival really.
Yes I feel for others greatly, but I take a step back, to be too involved would render me useless to help anyone, sometimes you have to do that. People are going to die, that is life, I have someone close who has a terminal illness, but I dont let it get me down, I need to be strong for them now.

I dont go to funerals of people I barely know, only those I have loved. People have asked me in the past 'oh are you going to so and so funeral', I say no, I have had people I know and love die on average every two years.

A girl I knew years ago said to me "how do you keep going everyday" I said I look for one small thing everyday, be it sunshine or whatever, she too sufferrred with a chronic illness.
I still try and live by that, yes deep down i always have escape/survival plans at hand, but I always hope for better things :)
For me there is no point in worrying about what doesn't affects me, it may seem selfish but thats how I have to live now.


Mimi said...

I think that we all have a little corner in our mind that keeps us on edge. I am always worried about the big one -earthquake- and what would happen if...

Lirish said...

Have never been in a situation yet where my life was threatened..can only imagine the plight of the people when such disasters occur and also the sorrow of the ones who have lost their near and dear ones..with incidents like these I have started thinking of the possibilities of 2012 doomsday theories..god only knows..nevertheless, life has to move on..I generally call myself an optimistic pessimist..think of the best but expect the worst..

Stella said...

Hello Odette,
You are truly too young and beautiful to be awaiting a disaster of anykind. I once lived through an earthquake of 7.9 on the Richter scale for thirty seconds , but I was in an anti- seismically constructed building. The earthquake shook me so hard that I tumbled out of bed. I saw my life flash before me.Buthere Iam writingon yourblog thirtyyears later. Shakspeare wrote and i am paraphrasing that if it is to come it will.... the "readiness" is all..

Odette said...

Thank you all for the comments. i know we can't predict when and where a disaster will happen, but i guess we will instinctively know what to do when faced with one.


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